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Yep, another year—or your yearly age-related philosophical moment, if you wish.

I have yet to freak out about my age and aging, although I’m vain enough to pluck a white hair here and there. Age stopped being a relevant number to me after 1999—before I turned 16, I had to use fake IDs to watch movies with my older friends, and they were a bummer to design (hint: use nail polish remover to erase the last digit of the birth year and… oh, never mind!).

What’s relevant to me—and this is how I keep track of the years going by—is the sum of all the experiences, feelings and emotions that make up life and make us humans.

Pink Floy’s Time embodies my deepest fear, especially when David Gilmour sings:

And then one day you find ten years have got behind you

No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun

Life isn’t a race but I certainly don’t want to miss the starting gun. There is so much to discover…

If I look back at the last ten years, life has been busy, interesting and a great learning experience. I’m happy with what I accomplished and even with what I failed to accomplish—or failed at period—because again, everything is an experience.

Living is feeling something, no matter what. Happiness, sadness, anger, joy, relief, anticipation, surprise, love, closeness, pride, wonder, and yes, pain sometime but it goes away because there is so much to see, so much to do, so much to… live!

I find it fascinating the way everything changes constantly—situations, perspectives… and the way we change too, as individuals. For instance, I only started drinking coffee a few years ago, and while I used to hate carrots, I now crave them. I actually enjoy my own company and I love feeling soreness after a good hike, whereas I spent years in school skipping PE classes. I discovered the bliss of Brazilian wax and there is one Nickelback song I can listen to without feeling like throwing the car stereo out of the window. Mark, of course, opened a door into a whole new world I didn’t even know existed—I’m not just talking about the basic boring rewards of motherhood, but did you know these baby fruit pureed pouches are delicious snacks, and skin lotion for kids works better than expensive scented creams?

Just a few years ago, I had no idea I would be able to make a living freelancing, yet I do. And again, just a few years ago, I had no idea I would be the person I am today, with my strengths and weaknesses.

I’m not setting goals. I like surprises.

And if they don’t come, I’ll make them happen.

Life is a pretty fuckin’ cool concept, if you ask me.

March 21, 2015, Ottawa

March 21, 2015, Ottawa


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French woman in English Canada. World citizen, new mom, traveler, translator, writer and photographer. Looking for comrades to start a new revolution.


  1. Loving your life philosophy! I should take heed of that! If I plucked out my greys I would be almost bald! Time to wear hats I guess! Happy Birthday!

  2. Martin Penwald on

    Happy birthday !
    Just for spring. Welcome flip-flops and light clothes. Perfect for the forecoming weather (-10°C tomorrow in Ottawa). Yipee !

  3. Happyyyy Birrrthday from (not so) sunny Brazil! 🙂 I’m a couple of years older than you, and haven’t found any white hair yet, though I’m planning on wearing them with pride. Er, we’ll see how that goes. Ha, ha.

  4. Chiruza Canadiense on

    Feliz cumple niña !! Hope you’re having a great day with your loved ones ^_^

    I know, I know, I should have sent you a b-day card or sth….just give me time, promise I will ! I still need to get used to this canadian habit….!

  5. I’m gonna celebrate my 29th birthday soon too. I wonder when I would feel like an adult. I got a child, almost two, I’ve been working for some years now, I even bought an house… but I still feel like a grown child 🙂

    A child educating child. Good job lol!

    Happy birthday to you!

    • I thought you were older, based on your wisdom! Seriously. You sound so… like you have everything under control. I admire you! I also feel like a fake grownup at times 😆

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